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dreams

Dreams

12:03:00 AM
I shared with some friends today my dream from last night. I've had very few dreams in my life that have "changed" me (other than the nightmare I had about the bloody hair lady who traumatized my childhood), but this will be one most certainly will live with me for awhile. So first, perhaps, I should describe this dream and then tell you...

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dementia

Election '09

1:15:00 PM
I just wanted to give you all a head's up on who is running next year (well...according to my grandmom) It's Obama vs. Owen (um...my dad)We'll begin our campaigning soonMy grandmom is sure my dad will win the presidencyI'm not too sure though (well...especially since the next election isn't for 4 more years...) ...

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lessons

Himself

10:33:00 AM
HIMSELF By: A. B. SimpsonI wish to speak to you about Jesus, and Jesus only. I often hear people say, "I wish I could get hold of Divine Healing, but I cannot." Sometimes they say, "I have got it." If I ask them, "What have you got?" the answer is sometimes, "I have got the blessing", sometimes it is, "I have got the...

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bakind

turkey cookies

12:32:00 PM
So, as of late, my grandmom is in the hospital with pneomonia- but i think she'll be fine. I love going to the hospital- I just feel great there- but I will never be a nurse. I would loathe that job and God bless the people who are nurses- just...ew. Andre the nurse was so amiable and patient as my grandmom described her...

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apron

The Magic Apron

7:59:00 PM
You all know of my Magic Apron. But you may not know that it has now inspired me to collect aprons. Yes. I do. My second Apron was Donna's festive apron (and the anniversary of the night on which I recieved that wonderful apron- though having to choose between that and the scarf was difficult and what was amazing was when my dear...

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baking

My Love

12:18:00 PM
Today is a splendid day. It is snowing. I know- crazy! It's autumn! I mean, we usually don't get any snow until at least after Christmas. And yet. It is snowing. And the Phillies are going to win the World series (which i keep mistakingly calling the "home series" much to my families amusement- also, my brother tricked me into thinking there were...

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dementia

Craziness

1:36:00 AM
Well... the other day I went to sit down to update you all, when I looked out the window and Nanny was taking out the garbage. 78. caneless. hunched over. lugging a huge bag of trash. across our lawn (which really isn't small). annoying! So I figured I should list, for posterity's sake, some of the latest crazy things she's done... She's gotten...

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birthday

What to wish for...

11:45:00 PM
Today is my grandfather's 80th birthday. Well...i mean, it would be today, if well, you know, he was still alive. But this post is not to be all "grandpop reflective;" it is instead a post about nothing much- just wanted to comment that my grandmom did not once mention that it was his birthday today. She has forgotten. She wrote the date on...

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college classes

College classes are going to be the death of me.

11:39:00 PM
I'm going to write my persuasive speech in my speech class on why not to go to college...just kidding. But honestly...I am the worst student ever and wish someone would have talked me out of taking four online classes. I can't even keep track of the days of the week, much less keep track of my classes...honestly. I have missed 3 spanish assignments,...

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culture

We survived

11:19:00 AM
Our time with the Germans was well spent. They left yesterday but will return next week (they're visiting my aunt in myrtle beach). It was exhausting and I really don't think I have the gift of hospitality- it sure wipes you. We literally never have company so for people from an entirely other culture and way of life to come and live in...

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dementia

THE GERMANS ARE COMING!

2:25:00 PM
Literally, any minute now (wait! did I hear them?...no, just the neighbor's friend speeding down the road in his jeep) my grandmom's brother (Heinz- 70ish) and his sons (Thomas- pronounced toe-mas and Harold) are coming to visit. The only problem is...um...my grandmom thinks her brother Heinz died...aye aye aye...i know. So we're all a little nervous and we've been cleaning nonstop for like...

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Bible College

A New Journal is Like a Breath of Fresh Air

12:52:00 AM
There's something amazing about getting a new journal. I finally finished my one I bought before Speaker's Week in England and I was just dying to get a new one. That journal is filled with pages of some of the most painful moments of my life. Also some of the happiest. Some of the hardest. Some of the most cherished. I have three...

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ER

Another Long Night at the E.R.

1:12:00 AM
Is it wrong to laugh in the E.R.??? I always wonder that after I've let out a long, hearty (and always loud...my laugh is never not!) one. I mean, my mom and I love the free nestle machines...and Take 5's...mmmmm...I enjoyed a latte and a mocha this evening...and I even introduced a new-bee to the ways of the E.R. waiting room to the...

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being needed

55 Years.

4:07:00 PM
Today is my grandparents anniversary- they would have been married 55 years today. 55 years. yikes. All I know is, my grandpop was a very patient man. I look back at old black and white photos of my grandparents and it's crazy to think...My grandmom was a beautiful German woman and my grandpop, a handsome American soldier. It's wierd to think of my...

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doctors

Oh the woes of having no health insurance

10:30:00 AM
So for a second I thought I had this grand revelation that a consolation for all of these doctors visits I've been to with my grandmom these past few months might pay off when I am 50+ and looking for a specialist for cataracts or my gastro-intestinal disorder i am sure I will have, but then I realized all of my grandmom's doctors...

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camping

Chocolate and My Future Doctor Husband

12:45:00 AM
My grandmom loves chocolate. That's one of the things I came to discover when I moved down with her. First off, we quickly discovered a hoard of chocolate in her closet in her room. My grandpop was a diabetic, so he certainly wasn't going to be helping her to eat all of it. And that hoard of chocolate disappeared a lot faster than you...

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being needed

Being Needed

1:37:00 PM
"Discipleship usually brings us into the necessity of choice between duty and desire" -Passion and Purity by Elizabeth Elliot Everything suddenly got a lot harder. I'm not really sure what it is. This post won't be deep or well-written or anything, more pensive and thinking out loud for me. I spent this weekend away visiting a friend at college, a much needed vacation for...

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dementia

Research Papers

6:03:00 PM
I think I must be a really big nerd. I'm the kind of kid who absolutely hated and thought research papers were unfair in highschool (who knows what I thought was unfair about them!). But I am also the kind of kid who would always think of something and think what a neat research paper that would be. Maybe I just hate being...

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lifehouse

Next Level Lifehouse Everything Skit

12:15:00 AM
death

Yellow Paint Nostalgia and the Stages of Grief

12:38:00 AM
And so I guess I have reached the point in the grieving process where I begin to have "flashbacks." Grieving is just so wierd. Death is just so wierd. I realize more and more how we just weren't meant for it. period. There's no way to process it in our heads. There's no way that seems right to handle death. Knowing that I...

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death

Tomorrow.

6:10:00 PM
They are taking out the tube tomorrow at 12 noon. They are taking out the tube tomorrow at 12 noon. ...

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death

Will you remember me?

10:42:00 AM
So, I've been reading the book of 1 Kings lately and since my thoughts have been occupied on life and death and eternity lately, I realized something. A king. Someone people will leave and die for. Someone people will bow down to and someone people will die fighting. Someone people will revere and esteem. Someone who was daily the topic of conversation for...

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death

The Dead Fat Man

10:17:00 PM
So. I saw my first dead man this afternoon.In the ventilator rehab hospital my grandfather has been in since January, he rooms with two other men. So far, out of his roomates that he has had in the last two months, three have died. Today, I saw one of them.He was a large fat man. He was new to the rehab. Richard, the...

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Recollect

2:28:00 PM
http://www.recollect.me.ukthis made me cry. click on "recollect motion" ...

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grandmom

Light Pink Lipstick and a Facial Wax

4:52:00 PM
The grass withereth, the flower fadeth: but the word of our God shall stand for ever. Isaiah 40:8 Vanity. Everything old people do seems to contradict. Such as, my grandmother walking around and barely noticing the enormous amount of hair that has been growing off of her chin and upper lip for the past four months, yet, before we could even imagine stepping...

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verses

Grace

10:02:00 PM
"Who art thou, O great mountain, before Zerubabbell you shall become a plain, and he shall bring forth the headstone thereof with shoutings, crying, 'Grace, grace unto it' " Zechariah 4:7 "Who art thou, O great mountain, before Zerubabbell you shall become a plain, and he shall bring forth the headstone thereof with shoutings, crying, 'Grace, grace unto it' " Zechariah 4:7 ...

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Bible College

The Fecal Immunochemical Kit

11:49:00 PM
Fecal- derived from the latin "faeces" meaning "dregs" definied as "the most undesirable part"...we get the word "feces" from it...Immunochemical- Describing the chemistry of antigens, antibodies, and their relation to each other.Kit-A set of articles or implements used for a specific purpose.___________________________________________________________________Fecal Immunochemical Kit- fancy name for A little envelope containing a child's blue paintbrush, little waste bags, a "test card," and a...

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