A Life After Death

Well. Merry Christmas! So far we've just given up on traditions. No Christmas cookies. No waiting at the top of the stairs till all the kids are ready and my dad videotaping our reactions. No homemade cinnamon buns. It's just one of those years since we're all busy and working and getting old. But there's some traditions I'm truly thankful are over. I'm...

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Fall remind me of my grandmom. Chicken noodle soup. Blankets. Snuggling. Cozy Fires. Apples. Apple pies. Apple kuchen. Lazy fall days where the house is quiet. Her memory is in all of it. When I think about staying home and taking care of her, I always just picture these quiet fall days where the morning starts out dark and I never wanted to...

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I'm so sad I never write on this blog anymore. I don't have a laptop right now so I really can't unless I try to do it on my phone but that's just too hard. Anyway, I still exist. God still exists. He's great and doing great things in my life and the people I know. I'm excited. Pray for revival. Rest in...

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I feel crazy. I need an outlet. Right now. I don't know how to love. How to be loved. How to care. How to lay down my life, my desires, my comfort- for anyone. How to want to do that. Oh Lord, I know to pray this prayer is dangerous in a sense. But I know that there is no safer place than...

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“Cry aloud; do not hold back; lift up your voice like a trumpet; declare to my people their transgression, to the house of Jacob their sins. 2 Yet they seek me daily and delight to know my ways, as if they were a nation that did righteousness and did not forsake the judgment of their God; they ask of me righteous judgments; they...

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" After [Pilate] had said this, he went back outside to the Jews and told them, "I find no guilt in Him [Jesus]" (John 18:38)"Pilate went out to them again and said to them, "See, I am bringing no Him out to you that you may know that I find no guilt in Him" (John 19:4)Pilate said to them, "Take him yourselves and...

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Now read their blog. You know how when you crush a rose the fragrance comes out. Or wine is made from pressed grapes. Yeah. The fragrance of Christ, the joy in the midst of suffering and pain, Living waters- the surpassing worth of knowing Christ- it all basically just exudes from this blog. It's like touching holy moments in the life of this...

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Well, to be perfectly honest I have had a really hard time lately. Everything people have ever tried to warn me grieving was is actually what grieving is. Sometimes I'm just sad. Sometimes I just lay in my bed and cry because I'm just plain sad. Sometimes I hurt in just a really deep place inside of me that physically makes me feel...

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One of the top things I miss most about my grandmom is just climbing into her bed and laying by her side. Honestly, I spent so many hours just laying in her bed and watching tv with her or playing on the computer or taking pictures together.  I just really miss her. And I don't really have an outlet for it. We haven't...

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The Prophets of Baal Defeated 20 So Ahab sent to all the people of Israel and gathered the prophets together at Mount Carmel. 21 And Elijah came near to all the people and said, “How long will you go limping between two different opinions? If the LORD is God, follow him; but if Baal, then follow him.” And the people did not answer him a word. 22 Then Elijah...

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I think I'm just overwhelmed with the Lord's kindness to me lately. Like why is He so kind and nice to me? So constantly showering blessings on me? I don't deserve an ounce of it! I feel like I'm just in a season where the Lord has so clearly led and ministered to me and provided for my needs- and I almost feel...

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I am so not used to being an emotional mess (at least not since highschool- for the most part I've pulled myself together since then). I did not expect today to be hard. Honestly, there's a part of me that has prided myself with how well I've grieved since grandmom died. I've watched a lot of people really struggle with the loss of loved...

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Looking back I get really overwhelmed at the Lord's faithfulness. The last few months have been a whirlwind. I had anticipated grandmom dying for so long, and then she finally passed into eternity, and I actually have "moved on" with my life and got a job and am surviving in the real world (tired as anything- but surviving)...And the Lord has taken care...

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My sweet friend Megan captures these pictures for us years ago. Treasures. So thankful. ...

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The blanket I won from mynewbeginnings.blogspot.com (aka my dear friend Jarreau's blog) So the last few days have been such a refreshing time. Ever since Monday night I've been doing a lot better. The guilt really hasn't shown up, which I'm truly thankful for. Tuesday morning I got up and read this encouragement from the Lord through Susannah Spurgeon- Free Grace and Dying...

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Grieving is so weird. I don't know if it's all just amplified because I'm tired and really didn't get any down time this weekend, or if it's because I wasn't getting into the Word as much, but it's been really really hard lately. I can't believe it's actually how people said it would be- it just hits you out of nowhere. Pushing a...

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Well I finished my third week of work today. Basically I'm exhausted but my body is getting used to been physically exerted everyday as opposed to the last four years where all it did was sit around with grandmom and drink coffee. I'm still loving it. Today we moved from the warehouse we've been working out of into the actual store (which is insanely huge....

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Emilee's home sans an appendix. Praise the Lord! I'll update about that later. I need to go to bed cause I'm a working girl and have to drive 45 minutes to work tomorrow morning! But I didn't want to let today pass without acknowledging that 4 years ago today my life changed forever. My grandpop (by the grace of God)left a ventilator hospital for heaven...

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yes, i am an employee Well praise the Lord- my first day of work was great! We had orientation at the Hatboro location for a couple of hours. Wanna know what kind of company i work for? One of the Human resource managers told us that if we came to work upset we could ask any of our managers to pray for us?...

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Today I got a free iced coffee at Dunkin Donuts (for free iced coffee Mondays with my coupon!) and as I was waiting for my coffee, I had this urge to buy my grandmom a donut...but then I remembered she's gone. Anyway, all this is to say- it takes longer than I thought to break these habits. But then again, I think it's...

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I had my first real job interview this week. I got my first "real job" (as in- not working at my church) this week! I am tentatively employed by Impact Thrift Stores (as long as I pass my drug test and strength test to show I can lift 30 pounds without dying and as long as my background check comes back clear!) I...

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My dear friend Julianne has been called by the Lord to Zambia and has started a blog to chronicle her journey- check it out!!!- I'm so excited! http://whatsjuliannedoinginzambia.blogspot.com/ My dear friend Julianne has been called by the Lord to Zambia and has started a blog to chronicle her journey- check it out!!!- I'm so excited! http://whatsjuliannedoinginzambia.blogspot.com/ ...

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Well, "my month" was up on Friday. I did mention that, right? That I felt like the Lord used my father to tell me to wait a month and not accept any  or job hunt for a month. So I took a literal month (24th January-24th February) and turned down jobs and prayed and got stuff done (such moving into grandmom's room, moving...

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"I have received word from my contacts that brother Youcef Nadarkhani's life is in immanent danger. There is an increased chance that he will be executed for his faith. His case has stalled and negotiations have ceased. We asked that you pray for brother Youcef and if the Lord leads you to fast as well." Present Truth Ministries Update 2/22/12- We have received a...

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Well, yesterday was hard. Remember the woman I took care of overnights in the summer three days a week? Anyway, she has Parkinson's and Dementia and is the mother of someone I know from church. Well, yesterday they needed a sitter for the day and since I have no permanent job yet, I said I was available. And I don't regret doing it- but it...

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Well. I'm "mostly" moved into my grandmom's old room (I still keep calling it grandmom's room, and I'm trying to break the habit.)It's like three times the size of my old room and I'm not sure what to do with myself. It looks totally different since we pulled the rug up and I'm just keeping the hardwood flooring that was underneath and I...

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"Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. 8 Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. 9 In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. 10 In this is love,...

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Our ESL classes are starting up today! Please please please pray for us! We're way more organized this time, but we honestly don't know what to expect with this next session (the Philadelphia libraries have cut funding for their classes so we may be getting a ton of people...) and one of our lead teachers can no longer help with the class. Thankfully we're...

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...I just really miss my grandmom. I know one day I eventually need to update this blog. I really don't know what I'm gonna do with it. A couple times I've gone to edit the "about me" and I just can't do it. Maybe it's because I don't have anything to replace it with...but then, I know one thing the Lord is teaching...

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